Do You Embrace or Fear the Big Changes in Your Life?

Crying in my pillow... be right back! | Do You Embrace or Fear the Big Changes in Your Life?
Crying in my pillow… be right back! | Do You Embrace or Fear the Big Changes in Your Life?

If you pay attention to Hey Eleanor, you might know that I am pregnant.

However, you might not know that, too.

I haven’t shared any photos of my bump via social media. Ultrasound photos? Pssshhht, only with our parents and a few select family members and friends. I’ve written one blog post about my baby fears (there are way more than what’s listed there!), and one about our babymoon. For someone who writes a lot about their personal life, pregnancy and motherhood have mostly been off-limits. Wanna know why?

It means big changes and I’m scared.

I’m not talking about the fears that surround becoming a mom (though… um… yes). I’m afraid that if I start writing about this stuff, readers will run away like the last human survivors of the zombie apocalypse. And yet…

This experience is consuming me.

I barely knew anything about pregnancy, babies and parenting a year ago. I still don’t know jack! (Have I mentioned that I didn’t even change a diaper until my 30s?!). But as much as I’m trying to get out of the house, do normal stuff, and be my normal old self, guess what? That Molly has changed. She’s become who my husband and I have dubbed “Polly” aka Pregnant Molly.

Molly eats lots of healthy food, avoids most grains, loves wine and IPAs and never drinks soda. Polly loves muffins, cookies, the occasional salad and is on a quest for the perfect root beer. Molly would have no problem staying up past midnight on a school night. Polly goes to bed at nine. Molly works from home and would never, ever turns on the TV before 7pm. Polly often takes a mid-day nap while HGTV’sFixer-Upper plays in the background.

Things are… different.

The whole idea behind Hey Eleanor was to face my fears, find adventure in my backyard and write about it. I’m still doing both, but in a different way. But I’ve been too afraid to write much about that because I don’t want to alienate my readers. And I don’t want to pigeonhole myself because the term mommy blogger grosses me out.

Because of that, I’ve been barely writing anything.

I love writing. It’s a bit like therapy for me (though, TBH, therapy is also like therapy for me). Instead of staying silent about the BIG SCARY CHANGE in my life, I’m embracing it.

That might mean some of my readers are less interested in some of the posts I’m putting out there. That’s okay. It’ll probably mean I gain some new folks, too. And I’m still going to publish non-mom stuff… so don’t worry, all is not lost.

They say kids change everything.

But I’m hopeful that I can maintain some semblance of Molly once this baby girl (!) arrives. I was pretty inspired by these folks— and with patience and the right attitude (and of course, a normal, healthy kid) you really can take your kids anywhere. I find some peace in knowing once she’s born, Polly will become Mom Molly… which when combined, puts me right back at Molly. I know she’s be different.

But different is okay.

* * *

STUCK IN A RUT?

SIGN UP FOR ACCESS TO THE #HEYELEANORCHALLENGE!

(plus a FREE copy of 107 Ways to Expand Your Comfort Zone)

Sign up with your email address to receive news and updates.

I completely respect your privacy.

You might also like

Comments (5)

  • Anna 1 year ago Reply

    I loved this post! As a longtime reader, I’ve truly missed your posts and wondered what the reasons were behind your absence. Although I completely understand your hesitance, I truly hope you continue to post the refreshing, honest, often funny posts I so look forward to as a reader. Even as a single 26-year-old, I’ve still thoroughly enjoyed your posts about motherhood. I think that comes down to your unique voice and the way that, no matter the topic, it still relates to the theme of the blog. I’m along for the ride, no matter the changes that occur! I read a lot of blogs and am familiar with mommy blogs, and I have to say, I cannot imagine Hey Eleanor falling into the traps that sometimes occur with those!

    molly mogren katt 1 year ago Reply

    Thanks for your kind words! I’m actually feeling reinvigorated since "owning" this pregnancy/writing this post. I think it’s all going to be okay and I don’t need to feel ashamed or embarrassed that my life and priorities have changed.

    Also, apparently a lot of other people are parents (or are thinking about it), so it’s not like I’m changing the focus from fear/adventure to, say, my new mud wrestling panda bear league in New Zealand.

    Becoming a mom has been way scarier than I ever even imagined, but I’m just going for it. Thanks for your encouragement and joining me on this wild ride. And if I start only posting baby food recipes, you can totally stop reading. I mean, I would! 😉

  • Heather Liedl 1 year ago Reply

    Polly! That’s hilarious. And yep, sounds really accurate. I discovered a breakfast muffin they have at my work while pregnant and I’m pretty sure I spent my entire paychecks eating them everyday.

    If you’re ever in the east burbs, check out 4 Seasons root beer in Mahtomedi. If you make it a root beer float, you won’t be sorry.

  • Caran Mollner 1 year ago Reply

    Great post Molly. There are a lot of women out there that I’m sure are feeling just like you and trying to face their fears about motherhood, I so appreciate your honesty. After all, as you said yourself Hey Eleanor is all about facing fears…this fear is really no different than the rest.

  • Bruce Mogren 1 year ago Reply

    Molly, once again I am very proud of you for being "Fearless" and writing about a very important, private part of your world. Pregnancy is a very powerful and important part of life, which also brings with it fears of the unknown. I have complete confidence that things will work out great and that you and Josh will be immersed in your greatest adventure of all, Parenthood! Good Luck!

Leave a Reply